Can't Hold It In

I realize 3 posts in 1 day is a lot, but I have a lot in my head. I constantly feel the need to talk about Cadence. Yeah, yeah...I know it's natural when you are a parent, but I have a different need. It's like a sickness. I HAVE to tell people how much I love her. I HAVE to tell people that the love you take on when you have a child is so indescribable. I guess it has to do with reading about so many sick children and reading about people who have lost their babies or never gotten a chance to even meet them. I don't know why I read it...I guess to remind myself just how lucky I am and just how short life is.

Cadence is my world. I cannot imagine breathing if she weren't here. I make it a point to tell her every day how much I love her...and get in as many hugs and kisses as possible. I find myself constantly smelling her hair, kissing her little hands and feet, and just staring at her. I want to take it all in. What if there were no tomorrow with her? I want to be able to rest in knowing that I loved her to the innermost depths of my heart and soul. She IS my heart and soul. No doubt about it.

Not a day goes by that I am not asked the question "So, when are you having more?". I'm only 21 people! Lord willing, I have a lot of time! Yes, James and I want more babies. When? I don't know. If we had more money, we might just have one tomorrow, but that isn't the case. I also have that "Can I love another like I love her?" question constantly in my head. I know that I will take on a whole new love with another child, but for now I am being selfish because I only want Cadence to have it. Just for now...

Thanks for letting me share. :) Thank you, Lord, for letting me be Cadence's mom...what a blessing you have given me.